Work, Girlfriend, and God

I work 7 day weeks.
I have 2 jobs.

No, I’m not a workaholic, I get tired too easily for that. But I have a future to contemplate, and get prepared for. I have bills to pay. Things to get.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I love working. I enjoy having money to put towards things that I like.

But to make a confession, I have a serious trust issue.

I have trouble trusting an omnipotent God with my finances. I worry, I fret, and I put my trust in myself with my financial planning..

I have a girlfriend. A lovely young lady she is. Worthy of better than I can give her, and worthy of a better man than I am. Making time for her isn’t easy, working seven days a week. Not to mention that I love to write. Like I am right now. It’s easy for me to get lost in what I’m doing, and not answer my phone.

I get over focused. I get lost in life. Chores. Work. Writing.

Now, I am a Christian. But sadly, like many people, I put my relationship with God last.  Perhaps that is why I have trust issues, with my financial wellbeing. I spend so much time with my focus elsewhere, not really putting time in with Him. With all that’s going on in my life, I feel sometimes like I’m always running out of time to do anything, and I drop him, because he is last.

Even knowing that if I put him first,  everything will be alright, and work itself out. The creator of time itself states that he will provide all my needs, according to his riches in glory.

What I truly need is not money, but more time. For that, I need to give of my time to Him, for he alone can give me what I need. He has promised, but I haven’t lived as though I believe his promise.

It is said that with God,  a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years is as a day.  Why do I keep turning away from the One who can supply what I need? Yet when I come back, seeking restoration to him, he is always there, waiting to forgive me and take me back, like the wandering prodigal I am.

Don’t be like me.

Don’t offer a token amount of time during the day here and there in prayers.

Be like I wish to be. And like God wishes us all to be. In constant prayerful spirit.

If we could simply pray all the time, it will increase the quality of our life. Giving us the time we need, giving us the quality of work that stands above the others.  And above all, giving us a deeper relationship with God and Jesus. That, is what Christianity is supposed to be about. 

Worship is not just in song, but in everything you do. How you live your life is to be a symbol of your worship.

~Calanon

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